How Could I Have Been So Stupid
How could I have been so stupid
And let you so near?
You’re just like the rest, that’s nothing new
You’re the reason why my own emotions I fear
I was doing perfectly fine
Numb and content
You came and befriended me
Ugh! Why couldn’t I see?!
You found something better
Someone else caught your eye
Now I’m nothing important
But you won’t see me cry
No. I’ve been through this before
Left alone and abandoned
But you aren’t worth the pain
Or at least, that’s the thought currently keeping me sane
I won’t name you in here
Because you know who you are
You ripped open a wound, but obviously don’t care
After all, what’s another scar?
Maybe I haven’t lost all faith just yet
Because it’s possible you’re still there
Do I just hide it too well?
Is it too hard for you to tell?
No. You noticed when you found me
And dragged me back to the sun
So what’s keeping you from seeing now?
Nothing. Don’t worry; my trip back down has already begun
Not that you would.
You have your new angel
What about me? You were mine, did you know?
I guess not. But I guess I don’t deserve one, so…
I won’t blather on, and keep you here
I’ll walk away forever, and you can forget
All the thoughts you had of me, if you already haven’t.
I won’t let you see. I’ll collapse after the sunset.
