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I am tried my friend! I am sick and down undergroud! Please help me! Slaying nightmares at night, Chasing hearts at day. Oh Kill Me!
I am in the darkness with a knife to my neck. Does anyone really care? I drop the knife and go to my my feet and cry. Oh Kill Me!
Why am I like, this hoping a winged spirit well take me away to hell or heaven? I have worked this hard to finally find a spot I like, yet I need to get away. Oh Kill Me!
I cut myself on the arm not feeling pain because I am already dead. Right? The blood flows like a river. Spilling and running place to place. Oh Kill Me!
I see my refelction in the red crimson blood. I use to see a young girl pure and promising. Now I see a filty and sining woman. Oh Kill Me!
I try to reach the sky but always falling down! I grow wings of light and pureness but they do not fit. I then grow wings of dark and dirtyness, but they do not fit. Oh Kill Me!
I grab the bloody knife and give it to you. I push my hair to the side. The moony night shows every sliver hair on my head. Oh Kill Me!
You grasp the knife as you do as my life. I show you no fear! I smiled as if I was kissed by my dearly beloved. Oh Kill Me!
Now you have my sinful life in your hands. I know your choice! I am sorry for what I have done! But I can't rewind my life! Netheir can you! Oh Kill Me!
You strike! The knife hits my heart and everything is in slow motion now. You watch all of my pain in my heart be gone from you. By your hands! Thank you for you ending my sorrow for your heart. Which I can never touch! Never! I love you my sorrow lover!

-Vicky
For all those out there that I have loved but never liked me! Well you know what! When I do win your heart growing up I am never going to ever love you back! Well that is if you are my Drity blound dream guy.