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hi,well yeah.i'm supposed to be sending my final draft of my letter to kat von D in an e-mail,i just got off two of her sites to see if there was a place where i could do just that,but i started to think that maybe i should just throw away all my hard work(i spent DAYS AND DAYS working on this letter to make it just right!)but the more i think about it,as nice of a sweetheart as i thought she was when i met her,what if she's just a b***h???
i mean,i hate the thought of that,but now i'm too scared to send it to her.
besides the fact i've always been told by everyone(except my mom,but i'm not sure if that counts)that it's useless to even try because she's so famous and famous people don't care about the "little people".the simpltons.really all my friends(and others)have said this to me,it really hurts emo
and sadly,it makes since.i don't care if it's her job,why would someone like her want to tattoo(or have anything to do)with a person like me???
i'll always firmly believe that no matter what,we're all people,but not everyone believes that.
but i'll admit something,i guess i'm a little intimatated by her cuz,well,it's certainly not that she's famous,infact i LOVE meeting any famous people,wether they've been big for a long while or if they're just starting out(i like meeting the new arivals more)it's almost like a hobbie for me cuz it's kinda like making new friends,and making friends is always great,but i think it's because she's just who she is.she's a beautiful girl who can have anything and one she wants.she may have had to work hard to get where she is,but now that she's there all she has to do is say that she wants this and that,and automatically it's hers.she's one of the best tattoo artist ever,everyone loves her,and now,i feel kinda stupid for ever wanting to meet her let alone buy her book.
i think i should just stay away from the stars.
my mom's been encouraging me to do this for a while after i told her it would mean so much to me if kat would tattoo SIXX on me.since it IS very important to me.
but in conclusion,i actully feel pretty stupid for being afraid of all this.
it makes me wanna cry a little.i just wanna get over it,or get it over with.
but that's all.
i actually have a letter i wanna send to shinedown,but i guess i'll throw that out to.
man...i give up...
it's something i've wanted to do for a while,but i guess sometimes you can't always try even...
peace,thnxs for listening to my stupid a** worthless grief...
Mood: sad and dissapointed in myself and the world
Music: useless~cavo & there for you~flyleaf
 XxImmortal_MachinexX · Sat Jun 13, 2009 @ 11:56pm · 0 Comments |
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