stare I'm pathetic. The only thing I'm good for is sitting on my lazy a**, wasting my parents' money, making a mess with my craft supplies, and drawing.
Drawing is the only thing I'm good for.. that and making lace..
I have zero people skills, can barely use a computer, have no job skills whatsoever.. Once my parents are gone, I'm screwed.
I overhear them talking about how much of a disappointment brother is (not those exact words, but might as well be) because he's not working, he says it's due to headaches, and not paying his house note or utilities. It's all in my parent's names so they have to eat it or get bad marks on their credit score..
I know I'm just as much a disappointment to them even though I never hear them talk about it.
I had such a great dream last night. I went to the mall with my katana and just started slaughtering people. They were all running around like little ants after their hill gets stepped on, screaming, praying, and begging for their lives! It was great! Then the best part: The pigs showed up and were trying to persuade me to put down the sword and go with them peacefully and I charged at the idiot trying to reason with me and they were forced to shoot! Unfortunately I woke up as my head hit the ground and cried. It was such a realistic dream, I thought it was real until I woke up.
I remember thinking as I fell that it was the best day of my life; I finally get to die and stop being such a pathetic waste of space. I hope my family doesn't grieve too much. Yea! I'm going to die! Come get me Angel of Death, I'm ready!
My head was millimeters from the ground, then, Goddamn mother ********! It was just a dream!
I know, I'm pathetic, but I will not commit suicide. That's the cowards way out, but if death should come to me in another form, any other form, I will welcome it with open arms and a big smile.
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