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Everyone was excited last period b/c Jenn is pregnant. Goody for her. I think that's what made me sad for some reason. I haven't smiled in the last hour ( my Coding class) I just sat there and did my work. You would think I would have smiled a little bit when I got both worksheets completly right, but something is off.
Maybe I just want to be happy- find my happiness, my somewhere I belong. Maybe I found it once. I remember being happy. I was with her... maybe I shouldn't have let go as easily. We all think that now. Then again we are all closer than we have ever been. I love going to visit. I smile all the time when I am there, but am sad when I have to leave, b/c then I realize- she's not mine....
Someday I will find this place for me. Maybe it is with Dave, maybe not. I'll just keep looking for that place, and maybe someday I will find it...
And a message for Moony: I know you are dating Jennie. Take good care of her. If you ever make her cry because of something other than her own stupidity, I won't forgive you. She was my entire world once, and I don't want to see her hurt any more.As for my other girl, I know she is fine. I talk to her all the time and I am glad. I'd just like to know, when it is my turn...
~* Turned around, upside down. Two suns in the East. Nothing is like is was before. Flyings like running with sky beneath your feet. When I went to run away. I slipped away so fast. Stumbled hard, went into a fall. Now I need to know why I've got wings at all. I need to know why I've got wings at all *~
~* I wanna heal. I wanna feel what I thought was never real. I wanna let go of the pain I've felt so long. I wanna heal. I wanna feel like I'm close to something real. I wanna find something I've wanted all along- Somewhere I belong *~
 Zoey Mikaela · Thu Dec 01, 2005 @ 08:37pm · 2 Comments |
