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I've been giving you many problems lately.
Maybe I should change the way I go about my day.
I always try to make time to see you, catch a glimpse of you. It brightens my day, depending on the circumstances.
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Maybe I should avoid you for a few days.
Give you time off from me essencially.
I don't know if it will mean not texting you either but I can decide soon enough.
That way you can relax knowing i'm not there to go into one of my mood swings and lash out.
And I can relax knowing I can't hurt you or insult you when i'm in one of my crazes.
So what i'll do this week is just plain avoid you. Which shouldn't be hard considering it's testing all week.
I'll wave hi and whatever but that'll be the most i'll do, I will make no attempt to go near you. This way I also practice self-control.
I love being near you, but it must annoy you. This way I can get used to being around you less. Give you space to be with you other friends.
And I suppose I can use the time I would spend with you after school to wander the forest and think. If I stay at school you'll see me, if you stay after.
Besides, in the forest I can calm down a bit. I'll go into the forest if it's a sunny day. If it's windy i'll go to the track. Unless there are people. Then it's off again to the forest.
I'll decide the rest when i'm in bed.
Hopefully this helps me some.
Ciao.
 Nirrina · Sun Apr 26, 2009 @ 08:17am · 0 Comments |
