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So yeah, I'm hungry.
I'm eating a bowl of Fruity pebbles.

Good stuff, good stuff. Wanna get on Ragnarok, I think I will in like.. 15 minutes.

Oh yeah! Now I remember what I was gonna talk about.

Last night Ryan hit me again,

I mentioned that Doug had invited me to go to waltzing/dancing lessons during the month of december. The idea was great! So I happened to ask Ryan if he wanted to go to but his reply wasn't truly favorable. His defensive mode automatically switched on and he barked at me, telling me to leave him alone.

So when I asked him what the problem was while I held him from behind, he kept saying it over and over. "Leave me alone.. leave me alone.. I'm not gonna say it again...'

And that's when he elbowed me, ouch.
So I got up and went to the couch. I didn't feel like dealing with that. I don't care if he cranky from work or not.

He walked over to the couch, apologized said something along the lines of 'being a third wheel', 'inviting him just because he would get jealous if he wasn't'.

All the while I'm shaking my head. "No, no, I was not thinking that."

Doug.Is.GAY. I told him this so many times before, but it often seems to fall on deaf ears. I told him there are three types of dancing.. dancing for competition/event, dancing for fun, dancing for love... he really considers dancing for love the only real meaning for dancing.

I don't know how the hell it evolved, but from there.. the trust issue popped up again. And I don't feel like explaining that.

But yeah, I calmed him down, he cried, he carried me back to the bed and we both fell asleep to the drone of his talking.

I hate how his work makes him so cranky. Ugh.