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mood o teh day:
grey
sad
today after i came home from spending the night at samanthas i found that Kiwi ( my Robovoski hamster) was acting strange again. This had happend before so i wasnt all that worried. She couldent open her eyes and she was barley moving and was very cold. i warmed her up and in no time she was back to her old self. i put her in the playpen and went to get Harmony (my teddybear hamster).... When i lifted up the half a log that she likes to sleep under and poked her she was ridged and cold. all the life had drained out of her. i've only had her for a month and a half!!! crying this is the first time in a long time that i cried with sound. usally when i cry its silently. but the past few days have been either not enough or too much.
too much kenny.
no support from Jordan
too much sadness
not enough sunny days
too much of my dad drinking
the list goes on and on...
and i nearly broke my promice to dark... but i doubt he even remembers it...
so many things i cant say
so many times to say them
i cant take this much longer....