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Alright so James and I were talking and some how it got onto the topic of Jackle (chelsea) the girl who I was best friends with for the lostest time then she emailed me saying I did something to upset her. Though I still can't remember what i did it must have been bad.
Yeah not the best thing to be hiding but beside the point. He told me that She's really sorry and misses me... wow bomb shell. I've been waiting to talk to her since the day after our fight. I shed countless tears over our friendship and countless times found myself driving slowly past her house hoping to see her or hoping for her to come outside so i could talk to her.
I would have gone to her directly but her father scares me.... deathly. Maybe its the cop thing. I donno, anyway, she said she's sorry and misses me and so now I don't know what to do. I miss her as well. Mornfully actually. I still cry sometimes about her. but I don't know if i should confront her or not, since it was james she said this to and not myself.
I sent her an email just a minute ago but it was to her old email and I forgot to ask james if she has a new one or not. its been half a year for goodness sake. but I didn't mention a thing of James, just told her i was sorry and I missed her. also that even though I don't remember what i did i shouldn't have blown up at her like i did.
I was thinking of just buying her an expensive christmas present and put it on her front step some time all wrapped up with a card signed from me. that is, if i haven't heard from her by christmas. ... I really miss her. I was actually hoping that my bad memory would help me forget how long i knew her. but just like ashley before her I can't.... sigh. So as you can tell im in the mood where im about to start crying. I'm so close to crying that I have to fight tears.
I hope this all works out. give me your advise, please.
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 Lacya · Wed Nov 09, 2005 @ 03:55am · 4 Comments |
