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I just got a phone call, the club I go to every Wednesday was just telling me that all the the girls are going *swimming* next week. xp
I used to love swimming I did, I would swim every chance I got...it was a passion of mine...but now i'm way to sefl conscious o my less then flawless body to get into a bathing suit. I even hand these board shorts I could wear to cover up my bottom but I still won't do it. So I guess I'll just bring a book and sit there watching the rest of the girl enjoy them selves. P.s. I pretty much hate my self every single time I eat something. emo ))
Another issue, just when I though the work load was dying down..it's only getting worse. T___T
I plan on getting as much of it done tonight as I can, along with the face that I have to pack my entire room up for the re-model. This is too much for me to handle, I have SO much school work and so many at home things I need to do, so many friends that are tugging for me to hang out with them every single day. I seriously can not handle all of this.
My only escape is Mike...I guess I think clearer when I talking to him, I can arrange me schedule better. When i'm not talking to him, organization is next to impossible.
The whole week and I all I do is hope for the weekend, I count the days in my head every single second to those two days two nights I have of freedom, but even then...my weekends feel BEYOND short..I can;t even put it into words, I want to get so much done on the weekend but it just passes by. Not to mention i'm starting to get cramps which is sign of I know what This is going to get a hellish week.
Anyway, Ive got a crap load of writing to do.
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I just got a phone call, the club I go to every Wednesday was just telling me that all the the girls are going *swimming* next week. xp
I used to love swimming I did, I would swim every chance I got...it was a passion of mine...but now i'm way to sefl conscious o my less then flawless body to get into a bathing suit. I even hand these board shorts I could wear to cover up my bottom but I still won't do it. So I guess I'll just bring a book and sit there watching the rest of the girl enjoy them selves. P.s. I pretty much hate my self every single time I eat something. emo ))
Another issue, just when I though the work load was dying down..it's only getting worse. T___T
I plan on getting as much of it done tonight as I can, along with the face that I have to pack my entire room up for the re-model. This is too much for me to handle, I have SO much school work and so many at home things I need to do, so many friends that are tugging for me to hang out with them every single day. I seriously can not handle all of this.
My only escape is Mike...I guess I think clearer when I talking to him, I can arrange me schedule better. When i'm not talking to him, organization is next to impossible.
The whole week and I all I do is hope for the weekend, I count the days in my head every single second to those two days two nights I have of freedom, but even then...my weekends feel BEYOND short..I can;t even put it into words, I want to get so much done on the weekend but it just passes by. Not to mention i'm starting to get cramps which is sign of I know what This is going to get a hellish week.
Anyway, Ive got a crap load of writing to do.
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