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It starts with stars,
beyond the skies,
beyond the heavens,
beyond our reach, but
we wonder,
we try, we reach
out and grab.

I am a star.
I am a shining star,
and I am beyond
your reach.

I don't
need words, I don't need
sound. You see it, you
see it when
you look at me, I'm
different.

And no matter
how many ships you build you will
never reach me. I exist
among you, I speak to you
(I keep quiet).

I'm a giant. I can't be missed. you see me, and
you want to know, what I am, what it's
like, to be me to exist like I do
and it's painful and it hurts and it's
wonderful
and chaotic and tiring.
and it's not whining, it's not, it's not,
it just hurts, and it needs to be
expressed, you need to hear it, and it's
not whining because
it's ture.

I bleed, I cry, and
die for you, I defecate my pain for you
but you'll never know, because
you are you and I am me and I am cursed and in love.
with you,
and with myself, and with everyone and with
Earth and nature and my
pain and my struggling- to
breathe, to
think, to be understood and
accepted,

Is that possible, not just for me
but for everyone,
they're all irrelevant, you
are irrelevant. Do you
understand? You mean nothing to me, nothing, you
are the pain I defecate, I need
your acceptance.
Please love me.

Love me, love me andbe gone,
go, go away I don't
have time for you, there's no time,
no time I have a lifetime to figure all this out,
but just one life, that's it
just one.

And it'll end- it'll end
with the stars, and
I'll be one of them, a giant, and
you'll look to me with your
telescope, shining beyond the sky,
but you'll never reach me.

I'm a star, I'm untouchable,
I'm special, different, I'm superior and inferior,
important and useless, I'm in my head
I'm in your way and you will look at me
and you will reach out and
you'll see

that I'm a ghost, I'm a mirage,
a dream,
I'm everything
you think and feel and want
and love and hate.

I'm
emo.

-Steve Emond:
Emo Boy - volume 1