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Do you want me to die in silence
Or
Do you want to hear me scream?
Ether way, you get to pick just
As long as it makes you happy

Would you want me to get sick and die
Or
Perhaps I’ll just commit suicide
Ether way, you get to pick just
As long as it makes you happy

I will wear a mask for you
So that you don’t have to see
My face.

And if I mess up again
I’ll runway for you
So that you don’t have to live with a
Disgrace

Am I really that much of a
Disappointment
To you that you have to inform me
of it every night?

I’ll listen to you
As you scream at me again
Just like last night you
Slap me in the face again
But I don’t care just
As long as it makes
You happy

You always wanted me to perfect but do you
Realize how hard it is
At least for me that is. . .
I’ll keep trying because I know
That’s what makes you
Happy

. . .

Right?

I’ll keep telling you that I’ll
Only for you
Dig my own grave
So that after I kill myself for you
I’ll land in it
I’m just sorry you’ll have to bury me
Or
Would that make you happy?

To see me dead
And to throw dirt onto my face
Would that really
Make you happy?

I don’t care really
Just
As long as your
Happy.

And before I do it
Please can you please tell me
That you love me and give me a
Kiss to death

For everything I’ve done for you
Will you please just
Kiss me

Goodnight
And
Goodbye

Please just
Kiss me goodnight

Unless that doesn’t make you happy?
Then you can let me die alone
Just as long as it makes you
Happy.