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i bought a linkin park cd this weekend and the 3dr song leave out all teh rest. it made me sad cause besides my family i doubt anyone cared that he died. i feel sad every time someone dies but the rest of teh world could care less. I miss him so much and the song makes me remember the hardest part and root of it all. No one cared that he had died.
I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared
After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here
So if you're asking me
I want you to know
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shared what I made
I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you
So if you're asking me
I want you to know
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are
this is the song. i love all the other songs but this one. It makes me remeber and think about how i'm not sure if anyone would miss me if something happened to me. Ever since he died i cry at teh thought of death. This is the secret i've kept from my friends, none of them read my journal so i can openly write it here. They tryed to help me when i fell into the depression but went at it all wrong. All i ever wanted when i am sad is too have someone listen, not try to fix my problems cause no one can. My friend kevin became that for me.and i will always owe him for that. He's a sweet guy who can be a a** once in a while, ok a lot of whiles but he has a good heart and is a good person. and someday i will be healed enought to fully t hank him and ither friends who took the hint, even though, i always said nothing was wrong, a lot of things were. I am so used to having no one that now that i do have people, friends who care about me, i still cant bring my self to telling them whats wrong. i can always write whats wrong but never say it. The ythink i'm better and i am cause i am not depressed but i still hurt so much missing my dad. i lied and said i was coming to terms with it. I am kinda but still feel like someone is stabbing a knife in my heart. I'm afraid to let people get close to me cause i dont want to hurt if something happens to them, exspecially my friends meg and kevin. Kevin's been a great listener, never trying to fix my problems just letting me talk and looking like he understands or is trying to. And Meg cause she pushes hersef through my barrior i made to keep everyone from getting close to me, an no matter how hard i try I cant push her away. I am so afraid to lose them cause i love them, and it would kill me. I would be hurting again like when my dad died, and i dont want that, but i dont want to be alone either. this part i havent even told kevin. and i dont plan too.
 Kitiara_fox · Mon Sep 15, 2008 @ 05:07pm · 0 Comments |
