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You come back to gaia and everything is all screwy.

Not that anyone really reads my journal, but I'm back. In college and hating every second of it. Aurion and I have finally made the ultimate decision that we make a very screwy couple. Not that we've broken up or anything, but yeah.

I'm at this point in my life where I have no idea what the hell I'm doing. I'm taking six units, which amounts to two classes. Ancient Art histoy and General Psychology. Both are challenging and interesing.

So, it's not really school I'm dissatisified with at the moment. Perhaps it's the fact that my wisdom teeth are coming in and ********!!! Plus, because America is dumb and doesn't have a government health plan for poor people (don't get me started on MediCal), I don't have the means of removing them.

I think it's that I'm not feeling very needed at the moment. The only person that seems to like being around me is Laura. We had very interesting conversations today about how we compare our relationships (friendly or sexual) to the relationship we have with each other.

I'm pretty damned pissed off at the moment. I'm not going to b***h too much about it here, because this is public. She knows who she is, and she probably knows that I’m pissed. Probably not as pissed as I was earlier. My mood kinda dimmed from being really angry to slightly disapointed in about three hours. I dunno, she's kinda hard to stay mad at for very long, and I know she's going through stressful things at the moment. But I kinda feel like I can't depend on people or get hopeful about things anymore without being horribly let down.

But I'm still not really mad at her- it's more me that I'm mad at. Is that healthy?
I dunno, I don't think I've had enough psychology right now to help me out. Anyway, that's just what's been on my mind and I kinda needed to get it out before I blew up or something.