Day in and day freaking out, its the same s**t every freaking day.
Woken up by flickering lights, shouting, and tension and the hours i am awake i hear put downs, shouting, and insults.
A few days ago because i was woken up with flickering lights and the sound of the damn switch going up and down for the 5th time that week i pulled a knife out, it was next to my bed and i went after the cause of my anger. Sadly... the thing that caused it was 'family' and my damn PJ top snagged the blade too many times for me to get him by surprise in the back or something. He called mom and she took my blade. This is the first time in a really long time that I've contemplated in stabbing him, but it won't be the last.. trust me it won't. Even today i thought of stabbing him.
Yesterday Buttonz was over, she usually always uses the desk top computer. Well she went outside to take a few drags off a Cig. The tyrant and all his glory jumped on and while her gaia was still open sent a message to her girl friend calling her a series of ugly names. Everything went downhill from there. She told him off and i helped her then he got all butt hurt and then somehow Tammy got in on it and he flipped out on her calling her all kinds of names that NO ONE should EVER call a lady NO MATTER HOW MAD they are. Dad got mad because Tammy is his Girlfriend and wouldn't let no punk 14 year old boy call his GF names. By this time me and buttonz had IM'ed each other and decided once my clothes in the dryer where done that i was so leaving. Sadly everything went to hell before they had a chance to dry and i left in my PJ's. Mom was going to leave but the tyrant got in the car and by that time i was already leaving the property and going down to Buttonz house. I showed up at buttonz house and she lent me a pair of clothes, i took a shower and chilled at her house for the rest of the night. Tyrant showed up a couple hours later for something and i called mom asked if i could spend the night and she said yes but that i couldn't spend anything more because buttonz and her family had guests over. Tyrant asked if he could use my laptop i said no and he said too late. I still wasn't over the fact that he had gone ballistic on the house or the fact that he had threatened everyone in the house or something of theirs. So i went off on him and closed the door in his face. I spent the night and i came home around 3-4pm maybe 5.
He was asleep and even though he was it still pissed me off to be in the same ******** house as him! Ever since then I've been trapped in this hell hole of a house keeping as quiet as i can. Doesn't work though he's still being a dumbass, mom is under too much pressure and at dinner i so could of used my knife to stab him! Mom TRIED TO DICTATE TO ME HOW I FELT!! Despite her being under so much stress i couldn't help but keep going since tyrant kept pushing me. I told him off and i told her in my own way that I WOULD STAB him if given the chance.
now it's 10:30PM and i'm sick to my stomach wondering if i should pack my s**t and go down to buttonz house to get a good nights sleep again... Cause at her house.. I'm actually wanted for something more then a target, maid, and just overall ear to b***h into!
I'M ******** SICK OF MY LIFE IN THIS ETERNAL HELL HOLE!!! ******** A!
******** THIS s**t!
Oh and if there is a god out there... THEY HAVE A VERY SICK AND TWISTED FORM OF CREATION! ******** THEM!
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