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Expecting some cheery post about a long dream finally fulfilled, weren't ya??
WRONG!!
stare
I'm finished with this.....
this feeling of isolation.!
it sucks, does it not? Then why are you doing this to me??
She's done this to you, and now you're doing it to me...
I'm sinking deeper into that feeling....yeah, you know that one that I've been so afraid of..? It's starting to come back...
I understand if you care for her, but I need friends too..!!!!!!!
oh, she needs all of this attention..
she's not spoiled, no not at the least.
I need her, I don't know what to do with my life if she's not in it..
I NEED SOME OF THAT!!!
I care about you too.......please don't forget that..
I'm tired of the same topic...over and over and over again...re-phrased, but still the same meaning behind every sentence..
I can't take it any longer..
I know that she's the one for you....she should know that by now, but she doesn't..
I can't see what you see in her anymore.....she's causing you more pain than before..I don't know why you would be willing to go through all of that...just to prove that you've changed.
She's never going to realize........not even if she survives for over a million years..
She treats you like any other guy: flirting with you, sleeping against you, playing her sick little mind games..
I'm done with all of it.....
honestly....I mean, geebus..
like I was telling Cassie earlier today...if the river is sometimes just high enough..and I look at it long enough.......it looks sort of comforting..just to wonder if I'd just jump in and let it ingulf me..wash me away, seperate me from all of this..
What would you do then, huh?? No more Kelsey to help you.......because you refused to see that I'm going through this pain again..
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