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:::.:Lil Pixie's Life:.::
Dull morrning...
its still early where i am.. i woke up at 3 am because of a nightmare and havent slept sence and my friend, kyo, friend has commited suicide... im placing out a rose for him tonight... but this triggers so many memories for me it scares me.... i got over my depression back in may or so this year, i was like depressed for 8 months, black, chains, daggers, everything... i still have the dagger in my room from then and i bring it out now and again to look at... its rather pretty bronze with a incarved flame into it and it fits perfectly into my hand cuz its small. but only a few days ago i found myself playing with my swiss army knife in social studies class at skool, i was sittin next to a couople of friends but they must of not notticed when i took it out... i didnt even, i dont remmeber takin it out! just the next thing i knew i was sitting there, watching my knife run over the palm of my hand under the desk, it scared me... i dont remmeber doing it really... i know i was going threw my purse but for the knife? nah, for a pink pen -_- ((gota love neon pink)) and now this happens... and well it just isnt the best of morrnings... i really hope i dont find myself doing that again in any class, or anywhere, im not plannin to kill myself or harm myself... i have poeple that care for me and a boyfriend that loves me, sure im not the smartest kid in skool but i get fair marks for my atempts, nothin to kill over... life is hard but sometimes its best to become stronger...And one thing to add on to the list is my best friend just broke up with her bf, i thought it was best on the situation and how she felt but now shes prolly depressed...i wish the best to her and her Xbf to be strong and not do anything to harm themselves... i hope Josh is happy with his desion of no longer staying around... i know i am with staying here, i love you Nick, and all my friends heart


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  • User Comments: [3]
    Must have been hard for you to get over that.
    That must be a nice dagger.
    Sorry about that, I'm how you say, fascinated with daggers and such like it.
    Have you done some like that in class one time before? Maybe it's because old habits die hard. stare
    You've cut yourself? eek


    comment justOnePsyduck · Community Member · Sat Nov 06, 2004 @ 06:16pm
    no, i never done it before in class... and i used to, yes

    comment playwithfire · Community Member · Sat Nov 06, 2004 @ 06:21pm
    i have a strong fixation with any sharp metal object...especially katanas...but yeah, i used to cut myself...no one noticed cuz i heal extremely fast...my best friend did too...i stopped because life got a little better, but i still do every once in a while...never in school tho. i hope you feel better soon! remember, everything will end sometime...

    comment czandra · Community Member · Sun Nov 07, 2004 @ 08:09am
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