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Well, hello everyone that reads my journals but never says anything about them. How are you on the day? Good? Well, guess what... IM NOT! I have lost my friends, soon my family, and a love. My friends moved off and the ones still her never say hello. My family,... some of then dont want s**t to do with me. And with what Im wanting to do I will lose them all. My love, well.... You all knew about how I felt. And what all was going on, it seems he dosent give a single care as to how I feel. So what now do I have? My cousion and younger brother. EXCEPT, Alex dosent really need me anymore. I remember we use to be as tight as rain. Kim and me still are. But Im starting to fear that we soon will not be. Everything is crashing down... I am thinking of going back to the way I use to be. I have cooled down sence the days where I was heartless and didnt give a crap. I even dressed that way. I miss my cutting, it kept me sain. I do believe I will go back to the way I use to be. But o thats right... NONE OF YOU GIVE A CARE!(Kim excluded.) None of you right me. You dont cheack in and see how things are, I try and see how you are but after a while you stop replying. Well, I get to start beauty school soon and mabey thing I'll be less of a bother to the lot of you.... My message to Whom it may consern is this...

I
Give
Up.......
Simple right. I just cant keep trying to open my heart up and have it smashed, when I was younger I always kept up a mask. A fake face if you will. I have learned over the years to let it down a bit. WELL FORGET THAT! Im putting my mask all the freakin' way up. Im sick of being hurt.

My knight...
Where ever you are....
SAVE ME!