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hiya people
for some odd and possibly explainable reason, i have a rush of emotions going on today
i started to paint which is something i seldomly do becasue i'm really bad at it
and, in one sitting at home, i wrote 3 songs
this is only out of the ordinary becasue if i'm at home, i have a plethera (sp?) of things to do... but today i didn't
it's hot in my house... i hate that right now
it's why i can't sleep... that and the fact i woke up at like 1 today
and so, my blabbering continues
i think i'm becoming a more deeper person, finding what i truly feel instead of what i'm supose to feel based on those televised love stories
like, i'm suppose to think i cna't live without this person, when in fact i'm doing okay for the time b eing
and i'm suppose to love this person by now, when i don't really kow if i do or not
i mean, yeah, i like him alot, but s it love?
the world may never know
i hate thatose love stories by the way
it's so surreal or soemthing like that
i mean, you see a guy walking past you, you stop and stare at them thinking " i love that guy" when you dont' even know his name
i mean, can't you really tell? i guess that whole male scent thing plays a key part, but you really don't think about those things
i mean, it's not normal to i guess
i think about the realy actual contious smell sometimes, but i'm not gonna get into that... kinda personal in a way
anywho, so the love you see on tv... a bunch of crap
and even if they just met, the girl talks to her friends saying " oh i love that guy, he's amazing" when you only knew them for like 5 minutes or soemthing.
it's pretty pathetic
love is not some fairy tale okay people
i know you hear that alot, but hear it from a girl who at one time thought it was and now it isn't
once you fall down that cloud 9, you'll feel what it truly means to be inlove when it finally hits you after truly knowing the person
love at first sight is a lie... like santa or soemthing
so, this does sound pretty depressing, but i'm just typeing what i'm feeling at this excact moment
cna't really stop myself once i start, so tough cookies
you know...i dont' always like chewy cookies
i mean, the crunchy kind are pretty good too, like oatmeal scotchies
i love those cookies
they taste way better crunchy cuz they they're easier to dip in milk
okay, i got way off topic, and i don't care really
oh... for you youtube fans out there, there's this one show thingy called Demyx Time
it's pretty stupid, but pretty funny
you should totally see it
juzst type in demyx time in that serch bar thingy and you're set
okay, i think i'm done boring the crap out of you with my worthless knowledge and spelling erroes (i know they're there people. i don't look at the screen at all. i feel the worlds i guess. if i see that i made a mistake on the keyboard, then i fix it. i'm typing pretty fast tonight, so i'm not catching everything. deal with it )
i love you guys int he sort of way a person can love a random stranger and some online buddies (u know who you are) cuz i know that none of my real world friends look at these things on a regular basis and it's too late to start now...i have like amillion of these things i swear.)
byebye peeps!