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Second Chances

I get no second glances,
no opportunities or chances
to make the things I’ve done wrong right
or keep my loved ones in sight
so this much I’ll try to do
I’ll be your friend, I’ll say I love you
I’ll hug you close, make you smile,
if only for a short while.

I’ve lost and I’ve loved
and all of the above
I’ve learned over the years
that I’ll have to conquer my fears
rejection is cruel, as is hate
but so many opportunities they create
to befriend someone new,
while others have bid them adieu.


the rain smells sweet,
and roses are a treat
but only to one who can see
all of the beauty that one’s soul can be
I’ve made mistakes:
I’ve tried to befriend fakes
but I can try, as can you
to be one who can see too.

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I almost

I almost want to scream and cry
I almost want to stop to try
I almost want to give up and die
I almost want to learn to lie

With all the hate and all the tears
With all the fights and all the fears
With all the things one hears
With all the things a lie clears

I want to love and be loved back
I want to believe there’s nothing I lack
I want to smile and laugh without looking back
I want my heart to remain whole, without a single crack

For everyone that gives a smile
For the feeling of belonging, if only for a while
For the hopes that tomorrow won’t hold another trial
For the wish that my heart isn’t in pain all the while

At the same time I want to learn
At the same time trying to turn
At the same time relieving ones’ burn
At the same time flowing like a field of fern

I sit here and wonder why life is so hard
I sit here and wish I’d been dealt another card
I sit here and realize I’m happy life is hard
I sit here and smile down at my lonely card

Even though I want to scream and cry
Even though I want to stop to try
Even though life is hard, I won’t lie
Even though I wish I could fly

Because someone out there loves me back
Because I appreciate the things I lack
Because I know sometimes I’ll have to look back
Because no one can fix my broken heart if there isn’t a crack

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Trance

Sometimes I get caught up in my own little world
And it doesn’t let go of the trance it twists into my mind
And my heart beats to a separate rhythm
And my mind works to a separate soul

But those occasional sometimes let me let go
Of the fear I hold when I’m “all world”
Sometimes I feel that IS me
And the original is a fluke, a faux

My mind tells me stories that I’d never think of
And my senses are clear and distinct
I twitch and I tingle to be alone
And let myself disappear completely

Most of the time I get stuck in that trance
And I wish I could stay-
Spellbound to my own little world
Stuck in the pretences of the stories I’ve read and the dreams I’ve created

And all I want- all I feel I need
Is to stay- safely hidden under the blanket of my mind
Allowed to imagine whatever, to say whatever
To star without anyone finding out

But reality comes back eventually
And I’m forced out of my trance
Forced to face the world and its problems
My problems, my worries…me.