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Well, Today is going off pritty good. I got to talk to Eric last night so Im in a good mood. I still dont quite know what is troubling him but at least I got to talk to him on here. It made me feel a little better to have him type that he cared. I miss his voice and everything but what can I do... I started taking my meds today so mabey my mood swings will settel down and I wont be jumping down peopls throuts anymore. I love Eric very much Im just worried that he wont love me once he sees the real me. I mean pics of me are real BUT seeing me in realiaty is diffrent. So I guess Im just scared. Im going to have to lose all this weight. X_X He says he will still love me but I wouldnt love me. He is great looking so why would he love me. O well... I know something is wrong with him but he says he dosent want to talk about it so I guess I'll just have to wait it out. Im just worried its something like he is dieng, there is a nother girl, there is a kid, or something like that. X-x But only time will tell. So far, Im in a good mood. So Im just going to try and stay this way. So when Eric gets on I can be good for him and not get into a fight... Cuz I know Im anoying him when Im that way. So Im going to take my meds for his sake... v-v But anywayz, Leave me comments geez people!

Love ya guys!