c я y s т α ℓ. ● α и и ε. я ο u ġ ε ● Oh oh oh ...
You know- [ e v e r y t h i n g ] I`m afraid -of-
You do everything I wish I did.
Everybody [ w a n t s ] you, Everybody ♥'s -you-
I know I should tell you- How I feel.
Ooh I got a [ c r u s h ] on ... you.   ♥ ♥ ✕ ♥ ♥ ✖♥ ♥ ✕ ♥ ♥ M i s s ● S h y † ღ † L i t t l e ● R a v e n c l a w
Crystal bit at her lips over and over again. Going to spend the holidays with Joey sounded fun, for sure, but what in the world would make her go? Not anything, actually. Crystal wasn't the one for parties or slumber parties with friends. Hell, she really didn't know if she considered anyone a friend other than Atti. She barely knew Joey, but she had heard Joey got to know Atticus more over those two months of her loneliness, sighing- Crystal listened to the quick words speeding out of Joey's mouth. Then Crystal couldn't help but stare at her plate at Joey's words. 'Baby girl?' Why would Joey talk like this? Sure, she was outgoing, but hell- she barely knew the girl. Sighing, she poked at her food- not really feeling like talking to anyone. Especially Atticus for some reason. Two months of distancing herself from him hadn't done much for her. She finally got the courage to look at Joey, her curly-ish hair sliding in front of her face. She smiled shyly through the tendrils, and laughed slowly. "O-oh Joey. I-I couldn't! Really!" she searched in her mind for an excuse. She knew she was going to be rude doing so, but she absolutely hated being with people she didn't know. And, no offense to Joey, but Crystal would feel so left out. Joey was so outgoing and ... lively! And parties, ugh, don't even get Crystal started. She never really fell in with anyone anywhere. Sighing dramatically, she began poking her food. That's about the time when Atticus was fully situated in front of them and talking. Joey's words snapped in her head, but she kept her composure. She really didn't mind hearing them, even coming from Joey. It just somehow clicked on bad images in her head. She hated when she did that. Especially with Joey and Atticus.
When Joey began speaking about drinking, Crystal cringed. She knew how it felt not being able to control herself. Not with alcohol or drugs, but things she got administered to her so long ago. She shook her head and closed her eyes at the bad memories and began biting her lip again. Why did she feel so negative around Joey and Atti together? Maybe it was the painful night of which followed the kiss. But she had gotten across her brain that it was just a playfully, not-so-much-of-a-big-deal kiss, wasn't it? Crystal sure thought she knew. Maybe now it was coming back to her.
Crystal was really confused about her feelings. Part of her longed for her life-long friend, Atti. But another part of her wanted him just to be happy with whoever. But, now it seemed like there was something in the middle. She didn't want to loose him, but she also wanted him to be happy. And if she was never able to even tell Atti feelings for anyone else, how would she do it to him? She would never, ever, in her life. But she knew if she didn't act soon- she would loose him. Oh, how tormented Crystal's brain was when she began to think these things. And since she was tired, she just wanted to be alone. She groaned slightly, before picking up on voices in the outside world. She groaned again, her head pounding. She just wanted to stop thinking, go to sleep.
Usually, she would love to take Atti up on outdoor activities; however, today she felt like crap. She rubbed her eyes, closing her eyes. She couldn't even bare to stare at her food, which had kept her occupied the long minutes. Oh great, first her head- now her stomach. What else? Her mind clicked when she heard Joey, she grumbled a 'yeah' to Joey. Trying her best to hid the inside pain. She groaned a bit, before sighing and standing up straight. Tears slowly came to her eyes and she quickly wiped them away. Ugh, migrain's hurt like a b***h- especially with everyone talking.
When Atti recognized her, she nodded and kept on listening. So far in this conversation, Joey and Atti had dominated it. Then, she heard Atti talk about outside. Well, sure- being out in the cold would maybe calm her down- but she felt too tired to even walk now. God, why did she even come to breakfast? She should've gone straight to bed. She brought her legs up to the bench, before switching sideways and hiding her head. She knew the two would wonder what she was doing, but she didn't want to lay her head down on the table. Or even rest her head in her hands. She would eventually fall and slip her face down into her food. No, she didn't want to do that. When she heard Joey's final plea, she gave a quick answer. "Lemme think, okay Joey?" she said it straightforward, in a stern, irritated voice. Even Crystal was suprised at herself, grumbling, she pushed her legs off to the side and grabbed her plate. She had a angry look on her face, which she hoped didn't give the wrong impression. "I'm not feeling good, I'm going back to the dorms." she almost slipped, but caught herself and put a free hand to her head. She walked off, looking wobbly and sick. Ahh great. She hated getting sick during the winter. She would have hot flashes and be wayyy too hot in the bed. She felt quite cold now, and bit at her lip. She wanted to get out of her, now.
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 iHewie · Fri May 16, 2008 @ 12:18am · 0 Comments |
