Hey, I feel like a new changed person ever since i really got to look at people on the outside and the way they are. I noticed that some of my friends have obsessions with talking to their signifigant others, like if they don't they will die. Then they throw fits when they don't get their way over something instead of just living with it. Don't get me wrong i know i did this a few months ago, but now i see it i know not to do it anymore because frankly once you see someone that does something that pisses you off you try more than anything to keep from becoming that person, or group of people. I just find it funny how some people act like one week away from them is going to kill them in the end.
Seriously though, i know that it makes you feel bad about not talking to them and stuff but then again maybe you need to think about something else. Some people however that i see need to get over their obsessions with theese people. Then there are the people who don't have enough common courtesy to really truely pay attention to their friends, after constantly claiming they still want to be friends, or irritate them through other means. I mean like claiming you don't talk to them enough or something when like the entire week you have talked to this person for over two to three hours. If two or three hours isn't enough to count as talking enough than maybe you should reconsider your involvment in one's life, because soon that turns into obsession whitch means any outside activities at all get put off for that single person, i made this mistake and now i see it.
I hope that my next g/f on the list at least respects me enough to understand this, and possibly even truely love me enough to keep the promises that we make. I keep most of the promises i have made and occassionally have broken them do to circumstances or something that has happened to where i was better off without keeping that promise. Sometimes i wonder why i am friends with some of the people i am and the main reason behind this probabbly has something to do with the fact that those people are different from everyone else. One thing however that really gets to me is the kind of person who will say they love you, and then don't believe you can truely handle the truth. Getting paranoid like if they told you then you would think differently of them some how. here is a little bit of Pheonix logic here... it's better to just tell them the truth and the whole truth because if they don't find out now, and find out about 20 years from now from a friend, it will ultimately hurt them even more.
Right now i am just putting up this happy smiling face for everyone around me because i don't want to get my friends involved in conflicts of my life. It's funny though because several of my friends don't even really return this at all. Now i don't mean like telling a friend when you have a problem that is okay. But i mean like stupid simple things like you having a problem with a friend and if you don't act like it doesn't bother you than a friend would wind up being ultimately torn apart. Then again this is a big sighn as to a lot of the friends i have around here. This doesn't apply to any of my friends on gaia however because i actually give a damn about all of them, and i hope that they are the same way when it comes to me.
Whatever,
PheonixFlare(JT)
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