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If just once a key misplaced spelled a word of opposite meaning and just once a thought miss-thought was said before being thunk do you think there would be those who would give you the benefit of the doubt. those who would say 'ah she didn't mean it that way' i think there aren't. all day and all night we spend our moments pressuring the love out of our very souls so that we may have room for the condemning thoughts of mistrust, doubt, hate, and even sorrow. yes we condemn our selves by condemning those around us. such a thought. so if by doing the opposite could we possibly change this twisted tango of fighting against our goals. say you gave me the benefit of the doubt. in doing so there would be a renewd source of hope inside me. this in turn would lead me to think better before committing my actions. to think of all of you better before committing my actions. and thus there would be less reason for you to condemn me to hatred and spoil the good moments because of one bad. yes it is true that this wind blows both ways but just as the breeze flowing through sunny southern California the majority of it comes from the west. a strong wind from the west blowing us all east into the scorching death of the desert. and even the wind blowing from the east is deadly for with it is the grit of polished sand leading to glass and a stifling heat that sits, waiting for the moment to catch us all without life giving water. so though most of the wind comes from the sea and blows towards death it is easy to say that the death that is blown in from the east makes up for its own absence...who knows but to write is to sing a sad song full of life and wonder that ,in the end, will in fact give way to a much happier song similar to the end of yet another classic Disney movie.
-thanks for reading,
lilly-Chan(friend of friends for now and tomorrow...and the day after that...and the day after that...etc...)


p.s. yes i'm fne, i started wrting and simply wrote as i thought. is this how i feel? i dont realy know but its what i felt like writing

P.s.s
being with the same person for sixteen months is amazing, i can honestly say that i feel the next sxteen will be well worth t and the same goes for every month after that. I love you anthony and i want the whole world to know!^^