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i am losing the battle,
the battle to my soul,
i am losing myself,
each day,
each night,
alone without you i regret,
my life,
so many expectations, so many dreams,
that i will lose, during this war,
and in the end my own emotions will betray me,
the happy the sad, they all drag me down, so no,
i cannot feel,
for i have traped what sanity i have left into the memories you gave me...
the smiles, the laughter, they are all ingraved in my mind,
locked away, so now...i cannot feel, i laugh, i cry and in the end,
i wont know why,
i can no longer feel for meyself,
i can no longer feel happy, because it seems like an illusion,
the fight i now face is diffrent, it is not as hard,
because...along the way,
i died...
leaving what trace of myself within your eyes,
because now i am diffrent, i am unpure,
i am commiting sins,
to wake myself up,
to unlock my feelings,
i want to feel again, i wish to dream...
i need to wake up before its too late, before i lose myself,
before i lose myself to the darkness,
but if i wake up...ill lose,
but if i stay asleep, i wont win,
knowing that....how can i go on?