At home... i cook, i clean, and i take care of the cats if someone else doesn't do their job i have to pick up the slack or it goes undone and eventualy gets worse till one of the adults get sick of it and go on a cleaning tyraid across the freaking house. My little brother does nothing around the house and has the freaking balls to COMAND me to do something or he punishes me for it! Like today, one of the cats puked on the kitchen floor and he stepped in it. He said since it was in MY kitchen i HAD to clean it up or he was gonna turn off my computer. I refused to clean it up because he said i had to and threatened the only thing i ever really enjoy while at home other then a book that i get from the libary. After he cleaned up the cat puke he threw it at me, called me lazy then came out babbeling about how im freaking bald, a dike, fat, lazy, and unreliable. Then he started to b***h about how the kitchen is not clean telling me his room was cleaner then my kitchen. 5 damn people eat and cook in one house, dishes pile up fast and i take my damn time, i admit the kitchen gets dirty but never enough that it's disgusting or totaly a wreck. He does NO chores, he spends money he doesn't earn, he picks fights and gets me mad to where im shouting and cussing at him so i get in trouble then laughs at me behind moms back. THEN HE WONDERS WHY i don't play with him, talk to him, be nice to him, or even acknawledge his ******** presence unless he's in my line of sight.
I know im not those things he called me but it still hurts to know thats how he thinks of me when he gets mad...
At school im failing 3 classes, i quit wrestling, im constantly getting angry over small things and some of the guys at school shout at me in the hall scaring me really bad so i jump and scream or i flinch and hit them. Yesterday Sean (at my school) did it and i chased him down the freaking track... i was so mad at him, if i had gotten my hands on him i so would of just beat the freaking piss out of him. Even after it happened i was mad, when i went to bed that night i tweaked as my muscles and nerves demanded that i beat the s**t out of something.
Every damn day my paitence is tryed in some way by the ignorant ******** at my school, im going to snap one day and go all out on them.
I just want to freaking leave...i want to go live with one of my brothers or or sisters if they didnt live so far away...
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