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Alright. So...currently it's 5:03 A.M. and I have yet to go to sleep. I shake my head at my stupidity...My sleep deprivation is only going to lead to headaches later in the day...*sigh* Well whatever. Anyway, to the point of this particular entry.

I think most of you, my friends at least, on this site, know that a rather large amount of the time I'm on the net is when I'm sneaking onto my sister's laptop. Well...hey...I'm desprite. But yeah...So...lately I've begun feeling guilty. Even though my sister's a b***h to me daily...I feel like I'm taking advantage of her...

...I dunno...I guess I'm just...o.O' really weird. Also, lately, I've been walking in on my sister and I end up seeing her crying, like last night for example...o.O' or would that be earlier this morning? Eh...whatever...It was around 1 am. So yeah... She was in her bedroom and I wanted to go tell her that I had just seen a shooting star while I was lounging about outside. I knocked but didn't get a reply....so..well...being the little sister I am...I opened to door.

I was dumstruck. There were literally rivers of tears flowing from her eyes. I wanted to ask her what was wrong...but she snapped at me before I could even open my mouth. ...I left the room and went backoutside.

Not long ago I was downstairs in my brother's room, (he's currently in Vegas with his GF) and was watching some of my random anime dvds...D N Angel, Saiyuki, and Full Metal Panic? Fumoffu if anyone was wondering. Well yeah. I had heard the faucet on the tube running a few times and wondered. Around 4:45 A.M. I came upstairs and noticed she was gone. I looked out one of the random windows and saw that her car was gone.

I just walked to the fridge and grabbed a bowl of jello I had made somewhere around 11 P.M. Then I began to think.

She'd pulled the same stunt last night/morning. I was hanging around downstairs on a couch and heard her coming down, I pretended I was sleeping as she walked up to me. She gave up on me after ten or so seconds and I soon heard the front door close and lock. "Nyan? She leave?" I had thought to myself. I looked out the window and she was infact gone.

I voiced my concerns to my dad later that morning...He'd woken me up before he left for work. He didn't really say much to me about it...and then he left. I went back to sleep. I didn't tell my mom because 1. She had already left for work and 2. ...She likes to talk... Eh... whatever.

I don't know why I'm so concerned about her. She never pays much attention to me...but I just can't help it. I don't want to see my sister in pain. She doesn't notice this though... She just ignored me when I asked her if she was alright...-.-'' She went on talking to my parents as I sat there on the counter watching...Grr....

I really don't know why I care about some one so stuck up as her... But...whatever...

I'm bringing this pointless thing to an end. I don't even remember half of the stuff I typed in here...-.-' Gawd...I keep burping...o.O' Never have a bowl of Garlic Potatoes for dinner...o.O' and only potatoes...X.X' you get gas...