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Okay, so a lot of ya'll know me, but you all don't really know me.
My name is Brittany Lynn Kelly. I've hated that name since I can remember, and I prefer to be called Ryan, Ryan M. Kelly. I love the color black not because i'm a freak (although I am that) or because that's the new "trend" but because it makes me feel safe and unnoticed. Many people think i'm a little good christian girl but fact is, I stopped being a christian a long time ago. I am now proudly Wiccan and strong in my faith. Oh, and I hate being called little, even though i'm shorter than almost everyone I know. I'm a middle child...or at least of my mom's children. I'm my father's youngest even though I hate him. He's been gone for over half my life, mostly in jail or prison...other times just staying away. I have many different "families" that have been established throughout the years and for most of those I am thankful. I have a hot temper and a short fuse. I do try to control it though. I'm a pyro along with most people I know and I guess I make friends easily. Usually I instigate fights but here on Gaia I try to keep them from not happening...weird huh? I've had many crushes throughout my life and have truely loved very few people. Not a lot of people can really get close to me. To be honest, that's the way I like it. Crowds give me a headache and trust me, i'm not very nice when I have a headache. I'm called anti-social and a recluse but I really don't care. Friends used to mean the world to me before a lot of them betrayed me. I guess that's one of the reasons why I don't trust easily. I'm writing this because I want people to know me, the real me, even though this isn't all of me...just a small piece.I'm a major rock fan...ah, rock! well, i have to deal with annoying people all the time...edward...but yeah, there are people out there who make it all better.