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Who is one to judge others?
Who are others to judge one?
Who are we to make decisions?
Who are we really?

Well today and for the past few days I've been going crazy. My head hurts, my stomach turns, and I cut my hand while working today. I don't know what's wrong with me. I feel happy yet my heart tells me to feel sad and fear. What am I afraid of? Maybe it's just all of this stress I've been going threw. Or maybe it's the thought of leaving home. I don't know. But I do know that my friends have been doing over time to keep me from doing something stupid.

In sort for some reason I just want to crawl under a rock and die. I don't know why so don't ask me why. I just do. Maybe I'm bi-polar or something...I dunno. Maybe I'm finally going insane from all the pain my friends and family have been going threw. Maybe God is telling me to come home. Maybe Satan is after me. Maybe this is all in my head. Maybe, I'll wake up in bed and laugh at how stupid I've been lately. Maybe I'll cry again tonight for no reason. Maybe I'll stare into the darkness of my soul and find some light. Maybe I'll just keep guessing... Maybe I'll never know.

I haven't really told anyone about how I've been feeling cause they've been going threw a lot on their own, and I'm tried of being their burden. And I know they wouldn't understand anyway. I don't even understand. But today I just feel so down, and so alone. I wish Angel was here right now. She would know what to do. Bu alas, a year ago she died, and now the one person I know I could count on is gone. Maybe this is how she was feeling...and didn't know what to do to...*sighs*

I want my friends right now, but they're all doing their own thing right now. I want my life back, this is insane. I don't know what to do and I don't have any help. It sucks...really it sucks...

Well I guess I'll just stop this and write something in my notebook. Then I'll go out, get some coffee (yeah I'm starting to drink coffee again) and then I'll go for a walk in the park if it isn't too cold, that or come back home and write some more in my journal. Well...Peace out y'all. Thanks for reading...