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I've been sad today and yesterday. .__.
It's normal but today I still felt bad during school so i had to pretend to be happy.
Although it was easier during lunch since i was with my friends.
Now i'm not typing this because i want people to read it. I just think i'll feel better if i write it down somewhere.
I've always felt bad about my looks. I'm not exactly pretty so because of that i've stayed away from other people. I'm pretty sure that i'm sad because i don't feel pretty. There's something in me that wants to be accepted so that was always a reason to try and fix myself. My friends say i'm pretty and though it helps my self-esteem i cannot bring myself to think that i am pretty just a little bit. I have seem to have it burned into my mind that i am ugly, so no little compliment can fix that. I just pass it off as a nothing, in fact sometimes it angers me. I just seem to keep reminding myself of this and when that happens i feel sad. It really does get annoying but i think it's better for me to express my feeling rather than keep them inside, only when i'm alone though. Well since i'm beginning to feel better i'll close this up. Until my next sad day.
Ciao. -.-v
Edit: Oh great. I just saw something that made me feel worse. I should just shut my damn eyes. .__.
 Nirrina · Fri Sep 14, 2007 @ 02:26am · 1 Comments |
