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For some reason I feel I'm losing some of my closest friends. When school started some of them just smiled and said hey glad to see ya. When usely they would've hugged me and laughed loudly. I guess it's cause they've growned up more then me. When I think about it, they don't crack jokes like they use to. They sit with people that are more like them now...and just...it's wried. I guess I'm one of those people who can never really change. I mean, sure I've changed a bit, but more on the outside then the inside. It's like, I see things happen to everybody. Seeing them move on in thier lives, go ahead. And me...while I'm just standing here alone, left behind. I'm not saying that I don't have friends or anything and sure some of them haven't changed one bit but...It's like...The ones who changed changed to better themshelves, the ones who didn't where already ahead anyway. Me...I'm so stuck. I want to change, I want to move on, but I'm so sacred. And some of my friends understand this, while others don't and the ones who do understand can never really understand because I refuse to tell them everything. Everything that is me. From that hurt in my heart to the pain in my mind. I'm so lost now....