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Why do I not feel when I am around him? Why is it every time I am with him everything, thoughts, feelings, everything disappears and I can’t seem to care for anything. He is so much like me. He likes what I like, his element is water, he likes anime like me, we share the same taste in music….minus the whole Beatles thing, and he likes to dance. I love everything he does to me, the way he strokes my back and plays with my hair. The way he holds me, the way he looks at me. He has done everything I’ve ever wanted my dream guy to do. He stole my first kiss. Why can’t I feel so strongly for him, like I should. Is it because I find it extremely hard to trust anyone, since my past experiences and all. I want to I just can’t. He shouldn’t have to prove himself, he has done way to much already…or rather said so much. He is just like a dream, and dreams fade so he should. Maybe my inner self is trying to keep me from hurting again. I don’t want to hurt, but I know I want to at least try to be with him. Age does not matter to me, it shouldn’t, well if I was 14 and he was 22 that would be different we are way past the age of immaturity. And heck it’s perfect he is a seme and I am an uke. We are perfect, I don’t understand this inner battle over him. All I know is that I love how he treats me, and his opinions, and what he likes. I guess I just have to learn to open my self up to him, I guess I want to, I just don’t know how.
 lunarkitsune16 · Wed Jul 25, 2007 @ 12:37am · 0 Comments |
