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I wake up every night and all i think about is him! he haunts my dreams like some spirit wanting revenge. I can never stop thinking about him. I was so blind! I knew three years ago he was special! I silently ovserved him until just before 2007 came. When we went on our choir trips i never could keep my eyes off him. At Disneyland too. It ws so magical. We sat underneath the stars with the rest of our classmates and wached the fireworks. this was only a few weeks after we went out. I'll never forget that. waching his face carefuly, waching his smile.

I still think of him as special. there is no one on this earth for me. no other match could ever been so perfect. It's as if our love was destined to be, as if it was written in a celestial book. Even though he never realy confessed his love out loud very much i still knew and I know now how deeply he cares for me. And I care for him. No force can ever tare our love asunder. That one day and night that we were together was like I was in heaven. When we danced together I felt lighter thana feather. H made me feel happier than i've ever felt around anyone. I havent talked to him or even seen him for two months. It's a little eerie. And i feel like a part of my heart is missing still. But i cant convince myself to call him. Were like a sailor and th noth star. one can see the other but the other cant see the person that is gazing.

My heart sheads tears and my eyes to, for him everyday. I've tried to ignore this for so long. but it's undenyable! I know i have to do something. or else i'll looks my north star forever. my angel, my prince. He's eveything to me. and i'm sure that in his guarded heart he feels the same for me. For once i' going to catch a star. heart heart