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I've been weird lately.

I don't like it.

Everything is ******** screwing up on me.

I'm at the office now fighting the urge to cry.

******** I hate life.

I'm so sick of trying to be everything to everyone.

I'm so sick of making everyone happy
excepet me.

Maybe I'm gunna close up again.
Wouldn't be too bad I suppose.

But the numb feeling only lasts so long.
And that that point I'm addicted to it.

I hate this family.
I hate this life.
I hate this feeling.
I hate these tears.
I hate this ******** acting like everything is perfect.
And most of all I hate myself.

Maybe for letting all this happen.
Or maybe for being too weak to stop it.
Weak and powerless.
It's easier that way.