I've been thinking so dang much lately. It's not good though. I keep thinking about next year and graduating. I'm not ready for that yet.... Starting a whole new chapter of my life and being alone. I mean I know I'll still have my friends, but they have their own things going on, and I can't keep them forever. They are all moving on and they have things that they want and need to do you know. I still don't know what I'm going to do. At night I stay up thinking, "what am I going to do?" "How am I going to do it?" "Where will I go?" "Do I stand a chance?" "What if I can't do it?" "What if I fail? Then what?" You see....thinking is a bad thing. I'm hoping that the classes that I signed up for will help me answer those questions. The questions that will plague my mind until I can figure it out. I don't want them to plague my mind. I want to be free of worries, then again who doesn't? I think that it's pointless that I even wish it. Some one who I value very much once told me that star's steal your wishes... and it makes sense. Sadly even though I tell myself not to, there are some nights where I can't help but look up at the beautiful night sky, I see those twinkling stars shining brightly up there, and I hear my heart making little wishes. I try to push them back and lock them away, but my heart over powers me and speaks louder. I can't help but wonder if my heart will ever be content. I don't think that it ever will be.
Sage_Hirihono · Sat Jul 07, 2007 @ 09:42pm · 0 Comments
