I'm now pretty much serious about joining the army, I haven't alot of my friends, only Ark Vivi and a few others that aren't on Gaia. I know alot of people are going to get the wrong idea about why I'm going, but I'm basically going for myself, my own selfish self. I hope I will stay in contact with my friends and family, but unfotunatley it probably won't happen that way.
I feel like crying at this point, but I have no idea why.
Probably because I'm spilling my guts to a computer screen, as it's all I've got now. My family doesn't care, or, at least it seems that way. All my friends are at least 3 hours away by car drive and I'm too much of a coward to anything more than to write this and feel the lump in my throat expand and feel my eyes sting.
I always wondered what it was like to be depressed, is this it? it all seems to clean cut and clear to be depression, but I've never fet this way before.
I feel absolutley nothing.
See you later anyone who reads this, I'm going to go and enjoy my freedom while it lasts
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