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Ok...on Sunday, I asked Ryan not to call/see me at all for 1 week. He said fine. So Sunday night he came over anyway with the whole "I'm so depressed and thinking about death" story and he asked me to make him feel better. So I told jokes and made him laugh..I thought "ok, he was depressed so it's ok."..Then, tuesday, he calls..I didn't answer, but he did call..wednesday, he comes over. He says he's going to Lakes of the Ozarks and he wants me to go with. I said "No." So he leaves..Thurday he called twice, Friday, he called 3 times, and today, he called me 4 times, (I wasn't here for 2 of them) and just now (like 2 minutes ago, he calls and says "This is the last message..I'll see you in heaven". BULL s**t! He's just trying to get my attention. He's an attention whore, just like his brother (who is in an assylum for trying to commit suicide). Besides, his depression is not my problem..NOT MY PROBLEM..Yet, I do find myself feeling bad for not saving him..but it's not my job..not my fault..If it were my Jenne, who means the world to me, it's be COMPLETELY different, but it's not..It's Ryan..He's so obsessed with me, that if he doesn't speak with me every day, he gets depressed..I couldn't save him if I wanted to. He's in Lakes of the Ozarks, 4 hours South-west of here. Only he can save himself so I don't see why he even bothers to call me. When I saved Emilie, it was out of love. IF I were to save Ryan, it would be out of pity and that isn't worth it. Still, I hope he doesn't do it..
Edit: I called him later that night. He's fine.. stare
 Arie Anna · Sun Apr 17, 2005 @ 01:40am · 2 Comments |
