That is until I started to think about a friend of mine who died...by killing herself. I thought of how much fun she whould've had and how we would've been beating up everyboy there and how we would just....go crazy togther...I missed her so much, but I chouldn't cry. I chouldn't let a single tear fall out...because I was afried too...crying is the last thing I want people see me do.
Some of my friends and my sister helped me out though. I knew I chouldn't stay sad forever so I began to smile and play and just...pretend to be myself. I kept talking about things that whouldn't lead me to her and that helped but I knew that it was a damn act...I wonder if they knew too...
I love them all though. Even the two that I had just meet today. lol. They all kept me happy and I pretty much was able to have a good time. I know that if I fouces on what is liveing and smileing at me then I can go on...liveing life as I should.
So thankyou guys!
To: Chris, Michel, Jose, Nijee, Q-man, Mayrai, and Cynthia.
You guys are the best.
just a random pic...I like it
