I have lots of play brothers sure. They're close to me and I love them...But...my own brother...then one I had based my life off of...he allways rejects me...Allways...Just like my father only he's stright forward with it.
My brother dosen't love me, but I allways looked up to him more then anyone else. He was my father. I thought if I was more like him, then things would be better...
But now I see that is wrong...He isn't my brother...he isn't my friend. We share nothing but a mother...he's only half of what I am...or the other way around...I wish it wasn't so but it is...I have no real brother..
As much as I wish as I chould, I can't pretend that all these play brothers are my real brothers. I can't wish for us to share the same blood...have everything a famliy should have...because in the end...we'll have to serpate...and leave behind our past...and I still feel empty...
Empty....so funny this feeling..*sighs* I don't know what to do anymore...I've lost a friend, a lover, and now my own brother...I can't hold on to anything anymore...soon I'll lose what ever I had of my father...I'll end up being hurt over and over again....
Is it wrong to want to be loved...? I...
LadyxGemini · Thu May 10, 2007 @ 12:31am · 0 Comments |