• there is uncertainty in every step i take
    there is the slightest of pauses before air rushes into my lungs.
    every beat of my heart only brings more pain
    vaguely i can see the outline of fingerprints on my skin
    soon there will be only the memory left
    the wounds will heal and fade away
    i question every moment where we smiled and laughed
    i question the times like this
    when the results of your anger are on my skin
    its only natural to wonder
    if it is at all my fault
    if in any way or any form am i to blame
    i know they say that no
    that i could never do anything to bring this upon myself
    but my heart denies such logic
    i gaze at walls of white
    while i question my own sanity
    what is it that brings out such anger from you
    is it the way i smile? or the way i laugh?
    is the fact that im not who you want me to be?
    are my faults really so hard for you to handle?
    a million and one questions
    why do your words lash out against my heart?
    tears begin to form
    and before i know it they are falling
    turning white paper to gray
    i find myself crying silently
    not a word falls from my lips
    i dont understand why we are like this
    i grow tired of wanting your acceptance so damn bad
    it seems that i cant even help myself
    i want somone to help me up
    i want somone to make the hurt go away
    but this is my life
    my battle
    and it seems that im alone in this war
    and i cant win