Thinking of You

• Artist: Niente Neiuun
• Description: I've had a rocky history with my current partner. This was a part of it. I write poetry when stuff bothers me, and the message is usually fairly self-explanatory.
• Date: 06/20/2010
• Tags: thinking boyfriend girlfriend partner lover

I once said that I hold my phone at night
Because it helps me feel close to you
Even now, after it's over, it's something I still do
I changed the wallpaper, because I can't bear to look at you

I thought that it would ease the guilt I feel
Move me along the path and help me heal
But you still linger in my dreams
Still have an effect on me

I don't know what it was I was expecting
Closure wasn't what I needed, although it's what I knew would come
I misinterpreted my love for you, though I'm still not sure what for
I thought I had it all figured out, but there's so much left to explore

I thought that I'd be fine here, thought I could find an outlet
Truth be known that I'm a mess, and nothing seems to fix it
Without you in my life I can't seem to find any solace
So I fight through each day by keeping myself distracted

But when I lie in bed at night, with nothing but cold sheets to embrace me
When my mind is allowed to wander, your taunting visage is all I see
Of course it's not enough, it never has been and never will be
I'll never sleep the whole night through without someone to hold me

I want nothing more than to escape this loneliness
To find peace in the arms of someone I can love
But every time happiness is within my grasp it flits away
Leaving me on the ground again, straining to find my way

I have no way of knowing if you might feel the same
If you're sitting alone somewhere, being crushed by the same pain
Wondering if maybe I might be thinking of you too
I assure you, dear, that thinking of you is really all I ever do.

Comments

[luvd_n_forgotten]

Well im sure to read more... Yu seeem like an amzing writer. :}

[Niente Neiuun]

Thanks a ton. It means a lot. I have a rapidly growing collection of poetry that I'm submitting. I try to remember to add in two each day, so keep checking back, and there's sure to be more.

[luvd_n_forgotten]

This is the first poem that ive hv related to exactly that iv ever read. I understand yur pain, and it sucks. But thats not the point, i hv to compliment yu on yur amzing writing. I personally hv not seen much better, and iv got no life. Read poems all the time. Im touched and hope yu will write more. Amazing... :} :}