• I feel the urge.
    My eyes catch the gleam of the blade.
    The muscles in my hand react.
    I want it so bad.
    To feel the pain.
    To watch the blood.
    I grab it quickly but
    Hold on to it to savor the moment.
    A crash in my room.
    My eyes jerk up.
    Seeing you say 'Stop!'
    But not really listening.
    Your strong hands grasp my own
    Stopping me.
    Tears, clear and obvious
    Shine in the corner of your eyes.
    Who are they for?
    My weapon leaves my hand
    And your embrace is warm.
    Those tears fall onto my head
    And I feel tears of my own.
    Shaking, I go for your arms
    Clutching them desparately.
    Wondering why I wanted the pain.
    Forgetting how much I loved you.
    How much you loved me.
    You stopped me.
    You care for me.
    My angel.
    Watching over me.
    To keep me safe.
    How did I miss you?
    Right in front of me,
    There you were all along.
    Guarding me.
    Protecting me.
    Loving me.