• that i've been alone most of my life. and yet i see these guys who act like complete jerks who have dozens of girls on them. y is that? Y is it that when u act nice everyone else seems happy but me? and if i act alittle off of nice, people begin to hate me. y is it that those guys can get girls to like them. it frustrates me thinking about it. it's especially during this coming holiday that it puzzles me still. that it hurts. I ask the same questions every time again and again. i guess i'll get used to it. hearing how everyone else has a valentine and keeps askin me if i have one. and i'll have to answer no. because thats just the way i am. i can't lie about something like that. cause it makes everyone hate me if they find out i lied. crying