• An image haunts me
    an image that dances in my mind
    one that I hate to see
    one that I don't want to come to reality
    the image of me becoming
    all the things I hate
    and of her, the unobtainable
    she, who I want the most

    Unobtainable...
    the word bounces in my thoughts
    it shows in my visage
    Unobtainable...
    a word I loathe
    a word that damages me so

    I see her in the back of my mind
    I see her in my dreams
    I see her in my heart
    I see her in my soul

    I wake to self hatred
    myself becoming what I despise
    as I see my life wasted

    and she is unobtainable
    she can't be mine, unobtainable...

    and yet, she's still in my mind...

    Unobtainable...