leave me be

• Artist: flower of poison
• Description: i dont know
  its just me...
• Date: 12/12/2008
• Tags: leave

Why is it that they get to be happy and I don’t?
the only place I find solace in is the blade closer and closer to the vein
seeing happy smiling faces pass me by
it makes me want to go deep and deeper
watching them go by in groups, families, friends
and to think that I cant have that, faster and faster
feeling the vibrant light that they emit
while I sit here in my drowning darkness
its all to sickening I don’t need to be here for them to be
happy I’ve supported myself until now and yet people
say that they need me as if they don’t support they take and take
and make me cut, cut, cut drawing more and more blood each time
its their fault not mine, I cant leave this ever depressing
darkness that I’ve created for myself

Comments

[peramene]

Don't feel obligated to use capitals or punctuation. Make your meaning clear through your words, they're all you need. Why does the narrator understand they do this to themselves, yet not seek freedom from it? Where does the cutting come in?

[-x- Fridge -x-]

Please, when you are writing, use capital letters and proper grammar and punctuation. Otherwise, it is very hard to read.
I like the feeling from the poem. I think the format needs a little work though.