• control alt delete.

    but its no use, it doesn't erase the memorys of you.

    I can repress the thoughts for just so long untill my will power is gone, and with a couple of drinks. my heart won't feel like its breaking everytime we happen to meet. I can smile and wave and act like your not the guy who got away. I tell myself these little lies that i know are just pushin me deeper into this drunkin stupor and as i act unware , and i laugh without a care, and grab the hand of my new guy, at lest he is for tonight.

    I looked at those box of pictures under my bed we looked so happy, back then when we were just friends, if i could only erase those memories and not the feelings that i had, but as it seems its the feelings that are making me fill a new glass. I take a sip, knowing in the morning it will be still you that i miss. How juvnile and niave to truely believe in forever , forever turned out to be not as long as i once imagned. If i could delete the flaws i wouldn't be erasing you i'd be erasing me. My unwillingness as you so kindly put it, to let you in, to talk about how i feel, and open up and pour out things out i rather not reveal.